Thursday, October 7, 2010

drugs...

i've noticed i have a small problem with drugs.

i know they are bad for me but at the risk of getting all philosophical, life seem rather mundane and dull. we only live once, what is the point of breaking my ass to get a whole lot of material shit only to die in the end. also, why the hell would i have a baby and have them suffer the same thing. None of it makes sense, so i like to take a little something to help clear my mind and enjoy life more.

i mean recreational drugs are far less dangerous than the shit they put in our foods that is available to people of all ages. why is the world full of hypocrites, another question i ask myself while on drugs.

and after thinking all this i still wonder when (im 21 atm) i will get a job and move out of my parents place...RL seems so lame i wish i could live online.

money has always been a problem for my family, they struggled to pay the mortgage when me and my siblings were younger (some not even born) and that lead to a life of constant moving around from public housing to public housing. eventually settling into where we are now. there has been many more problematic situations in our families history, too many to list.

i'm always aware that there are many people worse off, much much worse off. that helps a little but if i just "stopped whining and got a job" then sure it might feel better and help me get over my situation easier, but the problems remain.

i need more drugs.

26 comments:

  1. Don't do drug it's bad! Eminem said that!

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  2. well at least you're not an alcoholic like me :D
    being drunk all the time feels bad man, also it is a lot more expensive

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  3. Your way ahead of most addicts.
    You recognize you have a problem.
    This is where rehabiltation my begin.

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  4. Caffeine is my drug of choice, but mostly because it has certain advantages. I too live at my mothers place, but this is only because I have only bad experience when it comes to work.
    All I am saying is: Don't think normal as all the others do, thus ending one of your miseries. And don't do drugs!

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  5. I drink. Also caffeine at work. Keep doing something, tho work helps a lot. Also note that most people feel the way you do.

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  6. Well as long as it's recreational and not for coping with problems, it shouldn't pose much of a threat. But once you start taking them just because you have a need to, then prepare for a downward spiral.
    If i took anything it was always among friends. Had some bad experiences, figured most of the stuff isn't for my sensitive nature. I'm kinda thankful for that...

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  7. Huh, interesting viewpoint there, but a lot of people are just fine, and happy with their lives, without drugs. But you know, different strokes for different folks, whatever floats your boat, eh?

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  8. a lot of people share your mindset, don't worry :)

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  9. I think you should consider evaluating your priorities. If you have a drug problem, fine, if you can't pay for it because of no job, then there's an issue. Prioritize your life and see what would help you the most right now and start taking small steps towards it. You just need to get the ball rolling and eventually the momentum will follow through.

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  10. It's not a drug problem if you don't try to rationalize it by referring to the drugs they put in our food, air, and water.
    I don't want to get too hypocritical because I enjoy the recreational value of certain drugs, but if it is making issues for your finance, then you need to re-evaluate your priorities.

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  11. don't do too many. smoke weed everyday

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  12. Some drugs are perfectly fine for recreational use, IMO. But it really does come down to yourself and how socially acceptable it is in your group.

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  13. Good thinking !! Just use for recreational use and it's all good !! Also, on your reply @ my blogpost, I'm doing electro tomorrow so stay tuned :D

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  14. experimental and recreational use is ok :) just don't get too carried away

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  15. RL is a bitch- ive never done drugs, and probably never will- just dont much care for them

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  16. The world is inherently meaningless. Life and death will continuously cycle, and in the grand scheme of things, a human is inconsequential. These are simple cosmic facts. The purpose of life is to grab the universe and seize meaning from it. The universe is not an RPG, no matter how often you've been told about destiny and predestination and fate.

    It may be true that since the Big Bang set all objects into motion, all future events have been determined, but with no unaffected source outside of this to witness an undetermined universe, what does it even mean to say that we have no free will?

    You will live, and inexorably you will die. What you do in between lies with you. What meaning do you want your life to have? You only have 100 years at the most, how do you want to be remembered for it?

    Do you want to just waste your life taking drugs and avoiding your problems, because "one day I will die, so it doesn't even matter"?

    Don't you think that's a bit defeatist? I say, why not give the universe something to write home about.

    Leave them a LEGACY.

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  17. like Paul said, sure for experimental use..
    I mean I've always how it feels like getting high and listening to Pink Floyd

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  18. Quite true, We learn, find a job, mate, die.

    A bit of recreational fun everyso often isn't bad, I don;t use drugs at all. Ofc unless you are counting alcohol and nicotine then I probably do use to much. But getting a job will distract you anyway, so good luck with that.

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  19. :'(
    It's okay to let your mind roam aimlessly once in a while. I mean, we all need to let go of the crap we put up with at a daily basis, especially for us that still live at home. What's important though, is that you realize what the problem in your world is and face it when your mind is ready to. We're all still young; take your time. And... don't end up killing yourself please :(

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  20. Drugs are bad and its soo stupid to do it. IMO its immaturity

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  21. I love drugs. Life means nothing

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  22. Wow... what are the drugs even?

    http://quarterqwerty.blogspot.com/

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  23. great post.
    I've tried everything but hardcore drugs.
    coffee... taste like shit, i'm sorry it just taste bitter, and even with sugar, it taste like yeast.

    marijuana... makes me schitzophrenic for one hour, and i've gotten high a lot.

    alcohol... I, i can't control myself, therefore i fucking hate drinking..sucks cause most hot girls drink.

    heroine...just jkn..
    great post btw!

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